2015.Thursday, January 01, 2015
To be honest, I had no intention of writing one of these posts but as I sit here on the first day of 2015, I have found myself typing away at my laptop and thinking if I write out my goals and shizz for the next year, maybe I'll actually find myself doing them. You know that whole thing of writing something down so it actually happens. 2014 was a bit of a funny year, not a lot happened, I went to Orlando at Easter which seems like 10 years ago, not last year and well I landed what I thought was my dream job, only to leave 6 months later and embark on full time blogging and YouTuber life. I learnt a lot about myself in 2014, realised I am definitely still a 13 year old at heart when I screamed to my heart's content at a 1D concert, and found out the career, that I thought I wanted, wasn't actually what I wanted at all. I realised what i really love doing, and decided to take a huge risk because well life's too short and all that.
I'm excited for 2015, and for some reason, I feel like big stuff is going to happen. I don't even know why I'm thinking this, but for the first time in a few years, I'm going into the year with a job I actually like (though this blogging and YouTube thing barely feels like a job to me, I'm incredibly lucky) and well I just feel a bit Mystic Meg when I think hopefully good stuff will happen this year. I feel quite positive. That being said, I have made myself some goals for the next twelve months, that hopefully I will see through. But I feel like I've discovered myself in 2014 (pass the sick bag) and feel like I kind of know what direction I want to go in...
Create Great Content.
First things first, I want to build my blog and YouTube. I want to change up the content, and whilst everything will still remain beauty first, I want to throw in a lot more fashion and lifestyle too. I'm going to be aiming to post out 5-6 posts a week, with a variety of themes, and 3 videos on my YT channel. I've spent most of the Christmas break, watching YouTube tutorials on how to edit videos and photos, as I really want to up my game editing and photography wise. I woke up to a tweet and comment this morning saying ' I'd really upped my editing game' and that genuinely made me so happy. I've never been good at editing or photography, back in the day miss sassy 18 year old had an argument with their photography teacher at university, cause he belittled me for my work. But in December, I decided I wanted to improve and I'm actually enjoying it. Hopefully you will be seeing a lot better quality content from me. That being said please shout if you have any requests, for blog posts or videos, what do you like to watch/read? All suggestions would be appreciated. I have an idea of what I want my blog to be and although things may change a little bit, you'll still have me the big goofball rambling on about beauty, just with a few added extras.
I really want to see more of the world. I have a goal of going to NYC and LA this year, I don't even know if this will happen but we will remain positive. I loved NYC back in 2012, and for the past few months, I have had this massive hankering to go back. I also desperately want to visit LA and I'm hoping this will happen in 2015. To be honest, I'd be quite happy to go to anywhere, I want to see different places.
We've definitely outgrown our little house, and I am so ready to move into something bigger. Fingers crossed this is year we buy a house, but hey again money. I have a feeling something has to give, travelling or house saving and considering how much we want extra space, I think house saving will take first priority. I can't even tell you how I am already dreaming of having a kitchen that fits more than one person in, or having a living room big enough for a three seater sofa. This is probably my biggest goal in 2015, you can't beat being happy where you live.
In 2014, I was a bit harsh on myself. Last winter I ate a lot of shit basically which meant I put on weight. This shook my confidence, and I've started eating a lot healthier and have joined a gym. I already feel better after a couple of months of eating healthier and I want to up my game and really cut out the crap. Although I do pretty well, there are days where I eat a rubbish thing here and there. At the moment, the house is full of chocolate and snacks from Christmas. I'll be quite relieved when it's all gone, so I can focus on healthy stuff again. Gym wise, I want to go as much as I can, I've found myself enjoying it and I feel really positive. I joke about how I want to look like a Victoria's Secret Angel, but I just want to feel a bit more confident about myself and give myself the option to wear crop tops. Not that I really want to, but it's nice to have the option.
Stop Comparing Myself!
I really need to work on my self confidence, and stop comparing myself. Whether this is sighing over the Jenner sister's Instagram pics or wondering why my YouTube doesnt have as many subscribers as X does, I need to stop. I need to concentrate on what I'm doing and feel happy within myself. If I'm not nice to myself why would I expect anyone else to be?
To Let Things Be.
In 2014, I had what you could call an almost quarter life crisis. I suddenly realised I was in my 20's and had no idea what I wanted to do with my life or where it was going. Naturally this ended up with me quitting my job. But I have decided to just let things be, to not worry what Jack and Sally (whoever they are anyways) are doing and focus on being happy and well life will sort itself out anyways. No point worrying about stuff that is out of my control.
A lot of goals there hah, but I feel like I can definitely work on them this year. I'm excited about what this year will bring, and hopefully it will be a great year for us all. I also want to meet Harry Styles in 2015, I met Grimmy in 2014, so technically it's fair he is next this year. Obviously this is my main goal in life.
A big thank you to anyone who of course reads my blog or watches my YouTube channel, obviously without you, i wouldn't be doing this now as my job. I'd be sat in a job that I don't like, so thank you. I hope that 2015 is great for you all too, and well let's make it the best year yet :)