Why I Want To Change My Relationship With My Skin #faceforwardWednesday, July 15, 2015
I’ve never been confident with my skin. My journey with bad skin started in primary school, which is a very long time ago. I was surprised to see these red bumps erupt under my curtain of a fringe that my mum forced me to have cut. Why Mum why? Even when I managed to get my own way and grow my fringe out, I was still suffering from spots, and so a journey began of trying out different products to try clear my skin.
My skin has never been totally clear since. I have good and bad phases with my skin. I recently turned 24, which means my teenage years are definitely well behind me, which always bothers me that I still have the skin of a teenager though. Will my skin ever grow up and behave?
Battling with bad skin over the years, has had a knock on effect on my confidence. When I’m having a breakout, I feel everyone is looking at my spots, just a few weeks back, I had a monster appear on my forehead, that should of had its own postcode it was that big. I was convinced everyone was looking at it, and I wanted to pull my hair over my face like I was in the horror film ‘The Grudge’ to hide it.
I want to build on my self-confidence though, and I want my skin to get better. I want to stop feeling like I can’t step out of the door without make up. I don't want to fear someone knocking on the door when I have no make up on. I want to step out of my comfort zone and stop beating myself up about my skin. I have been inspired to get out of my comfort zone since working with skincare brand Clinique on their new #faceforward campaign. The campaign is all about empowerment and looking forward to the future, having no regrets and inspiring yourself and others. I wanted to work on my insecurities and wanted to help inspire others who may have always had skin woes too. My recent trip away to the states has also provided me with a new outlook on life, and I've come home knowing that I can achieve anything that I want to.
As I’ve mentioned in some of my posts and videos, recently, I overhauled my skincare routine. Going for simple products, and a routine that is based on my skin type. I went for a consultation with Clinique who are known for having an extensive range of products for blemished and oily skin. I was recommended the Anti-Blemish Solutions Clear Skin System, consisting of Anti Blemish Solutions Cleansing Gel, which I use on make up free skin. This cleanser has ingredients which help to clear dead surface cells and reduce excess oil that can lead to breakouts including salicylic acid, after cleaning I use the Clarifying Lotion which helps to clear blemishes and un clog pores by being a gentle exfoliator. Finally the All over clearing treatment, which is a treatment/moisturiser which helps to clear blemishes whilst fighting to prevent future ones.
My new skincare routine means that my skin has been looking a lot better recently. Although I’ve had the odd spot here and there, my overall skin has cleared up and I’m already starting to feel a bit more confident about my skin.
With myself feeling a bit more confident, I wanted to try and push myself to go out of my comfort zone and go out without make up. To some this isn't a big task. This is something you'd do every day, but to me it's a scary task. Honestly, this is a little scarier than going to America with 9 strangers.
You can see in my video whether I manage to step out of my comfort zone and what happened.
For the future, I want to build on this, I want to take more steps by going out without make up. I have realised that I don't need a smokey eye everyday, I have already toned down my everyday make up. But I want to most importantly build on my confidence on the inside. I want to feel like I'm not horrendous, and it's okay that my skin isn't perfect.
Whilst, I'm not turning my back on make up. Oh no. I want to work on not feeling like I need it to feel good. Whilst I will always love doing a smokey eye, and experimenting with contouring, I want to feel like my skin and I, don't need foundation and concealer. I want to not panic about someone seeing my bare face. I want to be scared that if a burglar breaks in during the night that they may harm us, rather than me worrying they'd see my make up less face. I want to step outside of my comfort zone and be okay with my skin. Maybe even one day, love my skin.
I will carry on using the three step cleansing routine, hopefully I will continue to see good results with my skin. Maybe one day my skin will be crystal clear, who knows.
I am excited for the future and for my new journey with my skin. I want to stop hating myself because of it, and embrace it. I don't want to beat myself up anymore over it, I want to be friends with myself and realise it's okay if I get spots from time to time. I need to realise that if someone is awful to me because of my skin, then they're not worth having in my life. I need to focus on the positives not the negatives, and every day push myself out of my comfort zone.
If I can do this, you can too.
What would you love to do to step out of your comfort zone this year? Travelling/being confident/making new friends? Whatever is it let me know and tweet me on social media! Don't forget the hashtag #faceforward
Clinique invites you to make a promise to the future. Share the pledge you’re making to yourself via Twitter @Clinique_UK and Instagram @cliniqueuk. Take part in the #faceforward campaign to motivate yourself and inspire others!