Remembering Why You Started.Monday, November 09, 2015
I think all bloggers go through a phase where they just don't feel like blogging. You feel meh about everything and you will do anything to not blog. That is me right now, and I've been feeling like this for a few weeks. I can't shake the feeling and I just can't seem to get my act together no matter how hard of a talking to I give myself.
I've become this way with my YouTube too, in fact even more so. With a blog post, it may take you three days to finally write but a video you have to sit right there, and if you're in a bad mood, it shows. I don't want to record videos where I look like a mardy arse so I just haven't. I'm not writing this post as a pity party, I don't want loads of people in the comments to be like ' your blog is so good' because this isn't about that, I wanted to write a post to say it's normal to feel like this and maybe it'll help me shake this un creative mood that I am in.
The thing is, blogging and Youtube isn't rocket science,but you have to have good creative ideas to make it work and of course, you have to enjoy it or your content just comes across as half arsed and nobody wants to read/watch that.
I've always been my worst self critic, and I can't help but keep comparing myself. I keep thinking, why don't my photos look like that, I wish my outfit posts were dreamier, why aren't I gaining subscribers? I've become so caught up in these thoughts that I've forgotten how to go about normal blogging and YouTube life, I draw blank with ideas. I hate this soooo much, it makes me feel lazy and even worse about the whole situation.
Things could be worse, I could be back in my shitty retail job with rubbish pay and rude customers, but we all go through phases of feeling uncreative and unsure in any job we have.
There's so much pressure to produce amazing content, magazine style blogs, to gain loads of followers and you feel if you aren't producing those things or gaining lots of readers/viewers, you wonder what you're doing wrong.
But then yesterday, when I was feeling a bit meh about my blog, I decided to do something about it. I've bought a new blog design, played around with photos and hoping that this will kick start some creative ideas. Emz tweeted me and said that 'to remember why you started.'
This is such good advice to remember, thinking about what pulled you into blogging and I can guess it probably wasn't to do with how many followers you could get. It wasn't about the magazine style blog layout, or having amazing photos. You blogged because you loved it, in my case I blogged because I loved beauty and loved writing, it also helped me feel less lonely after moving to university three hours away from home.
Some times, you have to step back and think about the bigger picture. Take a break, and re evaluate. Blogging isn't the be all and end all, it's way more important to feel like yourself and be happy than stress yourself out. I need to stop comparing myself to other bloggers, and remember that everyone only shows a tiny proportion of life on the internet. To not care so much about other people, and think back as this place which was created to share my love of Barry M nail polishes and Cheryl.
Sometimes when you feel like you're wading through mud, think about how far you've come, the achievements you've achieved, and stop being so hard on yourself.
If it makes you feel any better, we all feel this way, and I hope I can shake it off pretty soon. I don't like not enjoying blogging, but it will come back I am sure. If you're feeling like this right now, remember why you started blogging and take it back to basics, promise it will help you feel 100x better :)
I am going to try take my own advice now, so if posts and videos seem a little quiet, this is why. I would much rather provide quality than quantity for my blog, and I hope that's okay. Right, it's time to get that mojo back.