Okay so I had this post in my drafts, and kind of forget to post it on NYE. Let’s blame the copious amounts of Toblerone that I have eaten over the festive period, for this. Like I mentioned in my post yesterday, I definitely learnt a lot about myself in 2014, and learnt some valuable life lessons. Is this what growing up is kind of about? Hmm maybe.
It’s Okay To Not Be Okay;
I feel in society, especially in Britain, we have this get on with it mantra. You know a stiff upper lip. I realised this summer, that I was in fact not okay. I wasn’t happy, I was waking up miserable every morning and something finally snapped that I shouldn’t be feeling like this, especially not when I’m only 23. That job that I thought I wanted so badly, in the field, I was convinced was the career path actually turned out to be not what I wanted at all. Sometimes we are told to be lucky we have a job, but something made me think ‘it’s okay not to be happy, and it’s okay to want to change things.’ Why should we just stick with being miserable, whether it’s in a job we dread, or in a relationship or a friendship. It could even be a hobby we once enjoyed but now find a chore. We work for a very long time, and I wasn’t prepared anymore to lie in bed wide awake till 2 am on a Sunday just because I didn’t want Monday to come around. I may be being a little dramatic, because my job was fine. I worked with some great people, who are professionals in what they do. But it wasn’t for me. And that’s okay. After some long hard thinking, I took a risk. I quit my job. I decided to this blogging thing full time. Although some days are scary when I check my bank account, or I roll my eyes a million times over when people tell me ‘ I don’t work’ or I go stir crazy when I’ve been in the house for three days straight when I have deadlines with just Frank for company. I’m finally doing something I enjoy. It took me a while to realise what I wanted to do, and it even took getting a job I thought I wanted to actually realise what I wanted to do. But life has a funny way of working it’s way out. Don’t be afraid to change an aspect of your life, you’re not happy with. It’s okay to not be okay, and it’s okay to want to change things.
To Be Kinder To Myself:
Last winter, I ate a lot. And I mean a lot. This obviously meant I put on weight and therefore making me feel a bit shoddy about myself. I am my own worst critic, and I came to a point where I was pretty fed up of making myself feel awful all the time. No one out there is 100% body and self confident. I think the world we live in which is dominated by social media, makes everyone out to have perfect lives. You scroll through your Instagram feed, and are greeted with picture upon picture of perfect flawless girls, in bikinis, to the most amazing selfie. Honestly, it can make you feel a bit shit when you’re looking at this selfie, when you have a massive spot on your head, you’re in joggers and your shovelling nutella in to your gob. In reality, we all have these days. I realised that instead of comparing myself, I need to be kinder to myself. How do I expect other people to be nice to me, when I’m not nice to me? So with this, I have started to be kinder to myself, instead of moaning about my body, why not go to the gym and be positive? To not focus on just looks, and realise that kindness, humour and loyalty are the things you should always focus on and not whether your thighs touch together or not. And well if they do touch? You’re a step closer to being a mermaid, who’s the real winner?
To Stop Caring About What People Think:
I’ve always been one of those people who have worried what people thought of me. In fact, its the reason why I didn’t tell anyone about my blog or youtube for 18 months. This year, I suddenly stopped caring. Do what you want, and do what you want for you. Don’t bother about what anyone says to you about things you do or like, it’s your life and well that’s it. I saw this good quite that said, ‘ if they don’t know you personally, don’t take it personal.’ And it’s so true. Why do we get downtrodden by people saying stuff who don’t know us. People who don’t know anything about our lives, or us. Why do we allow them to? I’ve tried to stop worrying as much about people and what they think of me, I’m really trying to focus myself and I want to make myself happy before worrying about what other people think. As long as you’re happy, your family and friends are happy that’s all that matters. Sometimes you just have to give a middle finger to everyone else.
I’ve learnt some pretty important lessons this year, and I’m excited for what 2015 will bring. I have a list of resolutions of things that I posted about yesterday that I want to do, places I want to visit and goals I want to achieve. I’m ready for a fresh start this January. I’m feeling more positive, and I’m ready to tackle 2015 head on, and so should you. I promise, we’ll get back to beauty soon and I’ll stop with all my deep ramblings, haha.