Back in August, I made the decision to come off the contraceptive pill. Before you start imagining what name I’m going to call my child, it wasn’t cause of that at all. No, it was for a few reasons and in fact you can read my post which kinda explains more about my experience with the pill and why I decided it wasn’t for me anymore.
After I posted that post, which tbh I was amazed at how many of you read and commented/tweeted me to tell me your similar experiences. It shocked me how many of you had gone through the same thing as me, I mean it made me feel like 100x more normal and not alone. A few of you asked for updates on how I got on with life after the pill. After all, it wasn’t like I would stop taking it and boom my body would be back to normal. I didn’t even know what my body would be like without the pill, as I’d been on it for SO long. Anyway, I’ve been off the pill for two months now and I have noticed some differences in myself so I thought I’d do an update post and then maybe I’ll do these now and then to let you know how I’m getting on. Of course everyone is different so something for me may not be the same for you, but anyways here’s what’s been going on the past couple of months.
My Mental Health:
The main reason I came off the pill was because I was positive it was making me depressed. For the past couple of years, I have struggled with my mental health and I genuinely think it was down to my pill. I suffered from mood swings, anxiety, lack of motivation, and more. Although I haven’t become a super spring bunny, I definitely have less bad days then I did before. When I was on the pill, I couldn’t seem to control my emotions. It was like the negative side of my brain would take over and make me be in an awful mood all the time, I was constantly comparing myself, being horrible to myself and I couldn’t control it. However, I have noticed that I’ve been able to take back control of my emotions, my positive side usually tends to swoop in and give myself a pep talk, I’ve been able to almost rescue myself from having bad days if that makes sense?
I still struggle with motivation some days but I don’t know if that’s really anything related with the pill, it could be due to working from home and never giving myself enough sleep (though I am working on this right now with earlier bedtimes and earlier alarms in the morning.) I feel like my head feels a bit clearer, less foggy and I do feel better. I think that I do struggle with my mental health, but I’m getting better at controlling it. Some days on my pill left me feeling like I needed to go to the doctors to speak to someone about anti depressants cause I was fed up of being miserable. But thankfully I am feeling better, so fingers crossed it was my pill making me feel this way.
When I’ve been doing research online about the pill, periods after the pill always seem a bit scary. I’ve seen people on Twitter complain of horrible pains and periods being a bit hit and miss. So naturally I was a bit worried about periods after the pill, however touch wood they have been fine so far. I’ve always been lucky in the fact that I’ve never had painful or irregular periods, I know a lot of people are put on the pill to help eradicate painful periods. I’ve had three periods in the past two months, one was the bleed you have after stopping taking your pill so like your period you have in your 7 day break. Then two normal periods, they came after about 28 days, I’ve downloaded a period tracker app (yes really haha) to keep an eye on things and they both came on time. I’ve not noticed much difference with pain, or flow or anything like that. So that is all good so far. However one thing I have noticed is my PMT. Oh My God.
So I always knew when I was about to come on when I was on the pill, cause I’d be incredibly hungry all the time, a bit miserable and I’d break out in spots. But PMT off the pill is like a devil woman has possessed me. I have been SO irritable the week before both periods, someone just needs to breathe and I’m ready to throw a plate across the room. I’m irritated about everything which I’ve never experienced before. So I’m sure you can imagine, I am a JOY to be with during that week eh? I’ve also noticed that I’m not as hot, like my temperature isn’t as high as it was before during my period. So that’s good, as it used to be a nightmare having constant hot flushes for 4/5 days!
So what’s been happening with my skin? After all my skin was why I was put on the pill in the first place. I haven’t really noticed too much of a difference with spots, they get worse around the time of my period, and well I have clear days and bad days. No difference from being on the pill. However I have noticed that my skin has been SO oily, it’s gone from being a little bit oily to oh my god is my face melting off oily. This has been the biggest pain in the arse, I get nervous if I forget powder in my handbag as my skin just seems to spurt out oil which y’know is lovely. My skin has either been super oily or dry and dull, I can’t seem to get an in-between which I’m losing my rag with at the moment if I’m honest. I’m hoping my skin will settle down soon but I have been tempted to the doctors and be like ‘help’ but then I don’t know if there’s anything they can give me to help. So if you have any recommendations for products for oily skin please let me know!!
I don’t think I have anything else to update you on regrading the pill, but if there’s anything else you’d like to know, please leave me a comment/email/tweet and I can answer it for you, or include it in my next update post perhaps?
Anyways, I’m going to go now, but let me know if you’ve ever come off the pill and how you found yourself adapting? I would love to know how you got on!